Things I want to remember about our Napa valley vacation:
When it wasn’t very nice weather and we went to the Golden Gate Bridge. And instead of being upset we made the best of it. We started running around the train partly because it was cold and just being silly and laughing. You ran ahead of me and stopped to look back at me. We made eye contact and I began to run faster towards you, having an inner monologue with myself that I was going to try and get ahead of you. As soon as I caught up to you standing still, thinking I was about to pass you, you grabbed me, let out a playful, ahh, and we swirled around and I embraced you, laughing and smiling.
It was a perfect moment.
Every moment we had the top down on the convertible driving through Napa.
‘Belle Epoque Beauty Reclining on a Settee with Roses’ - Paul Antoine de la Boulaye
It’s hard for me to put the last 24 hours into words.
We ate shake shack and shopped, bought coffee and you bought me a beautiful bracelet, went out with your friends, drank and ate. Slept and snuggled and talked about how happy we are with each other until we fell asleep, made breakfast then snuggled and slept some more.
I might of woken up on the wrong side of the bed today, but I tried to make the best of it. I took too many of those blue pills but, then it gave me the jitters. I got a long massage, but I fell asleep for half of it. I was also flooded with emotions today. I had to redo my make up because I couldn’t stop crying. I’m not sure if I was crying from being hormonal, alone, homesick, joy, or feeling so loved. It was probably all of those things. Today was my birthday.
After the Catskills Julia and I chatted in the kitchen as girls do. She said, “honestly V is a better person since hanging out with you.” She said before he hung out with me it was really hard for her to be around him and connect with him. Mostly because of his exaggeration tendencies and how he would talk about women drooling over all over him. With me she sees he’s a real human and has a soft side and he can’t pull his bulshit shit around me because I don’t fall for it. She also said, he’s met his match with you. Which can be taken in a few different ways, but I couldn’t agree more.
We went to the cakskills this weekend with 6 of our friends and in the car ride up it was late at night and we were all telling scary stories and i got scared. So you giys kept trying to scare me. And then this creepy beat up car slowed down and pulled to the side of us and i was scared and Irationally screamed when it happened. I was fine a few seconds later and we all laughed together in the car and moved on. On the second day we needed more avocados and eggs from the grocery store so you and I went to the grocery store. I was really hungry so after we bought the groceries I opened the chips and salsa in the paking lot. We put the slasa on the trunk of the car and continued to much on the chips and salsa while talking about life, in the middle of a parking in the mountians. That was my favorite moment of the whole trip. So simple. So authentic and pure. just you and I and a bag of chips in a parking lot and I couldnt of been happier in that moment.
The next day when we returned to rhe city i couldnt help but mention my favorite part of the trip was eating chips and salsa with you in that parking lot. We had a laugh about it. I asked you what your favorite part about the trip (involving me) was and you said when i screamed in the car. And that represents so much about us. I think a lot of other people would of found that super annoying and irrational and uncalled for. But you said it was your favorite. It was me being purely myself, silly and vuneruable all wrapperd up in one moment.
It made me realize I have never had a man truely like me for all the reasons I like myself. Until you. I am truely myself around you and i cant say that for any orher relationship.
